ahahaha I really look up to you as a person and now I feel really shitty about myself and my opinions because I worded something wrong and you go onto me for it I didn;t mean it like that I would never mean it like that I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m shit and I’m stupid I’m sorry
what’s stupid is I’m too afraid to talk to my other partner about this exact same thing, because I don’t want him to think I’m abandoning him.
hah, yes, make me feel like a shitty person
that’s exactly what’s going to make this completely bomb
I’m not reacting the way I should to this
at least not internally.
the suggestion doesn’t make me hurt, like it would have before.
It’s just a dull sort of pain, because I love him, I love them both, but it’s just not there anymore. Not like it used to be
But I don’t want to break up with them because I know how they’ll take it, I know who they’ll blame
and it will make things horrible.
And I don’t want to lose either of them…
Its a potent song, bro.
it’s a dumb song
I AM NOT GETTING SICK OF YOU ;A;
I know, it just feels like it sometimes
HELL YES WE WOULD MISS YOU IF YOU LEFT. Why didn’t you talk to me about this!? ;A;
I didn’t want to log into skype
luke calmed me down though and helped me stop crying last night so it’s okay
the stupid thing is that this was all triggered by a fucking song
little lion man by mumford and son
what really scares me if dor the first tie in my life I’m having suicidal thoughts and I don;t wnt to but I keep thinking everything will be better if I kill myself
no one would have to deal with me anymore
but they still would because it’s selfish for me to kill myself because everyone would be upset and shit and I just really really really hate myself right now
I;m sorry I won;t kill myself but I keep thinking it
I need help I’m sorry